recently i have been realizing that i live in complicated place of not being able to decide where i am. part of the reason is that i notice a few things that i like and assume the whole package is aligned with my moral philosophy. another reason that i am in this state of confusion is because i have been looking to other peoples role models instead of deciding where i, myself, want to end up and heading there. the biggest problem with other peoples role models is that because i didnt evaluate them for myself they disappoint me--also, they might not be 100% in line with what i want... you know?
Things like this remind me that even though i'm 27, married, a teacher, and a responsible adult i have SO much growing up to do. but I have no desire to be like most of the adults that i see. this complicated place? --working out what parts of "grown up" makes sense for me and which ones are just frilly space-fillers that i dont want. i need to grow up, and by that i just mean, solidfy my own personal values and stick to them- dont let others convictions waver my own.
born in the US, living in Mexico. born Erickson, married into Martinez.
